sadgirlygirl: “im alone with him most of the day..and another point he isnt here right now so im alone with a different male patient.”
This sounds like a really bad situation. I understand that it is hard for you to quit, and I can understand your concerns about what people will say and getting another job. I have been in similar situations many times in my life (although the reasons were different).
But at the end of the day, you will be proud of yourself if you muster up the courage to quit. It will give you more self-confidence which will serve you well in all your future endeavors in parnassah and shidduchim.
It will make you a stronger person although it’s hard to see it now.
I have been through a lot of difficult things in my life and had to make a lot of difficult decisions. I have had to quit jobs because of halachic considerations, and it was hard and I didn’t necessarily see a yeshua right away. But I can see now that I am a much stronger person as a result and my emunah in Hashem has been strengthened.
Remember – “lfum tsaarah agrah” “The harder it is, the greater the rewared.” Since it is such a hard decision to make, Hashem will reward you tremendously although you might not see it right away.