So I got over the shock basically, just trying to bear the fresh pain.
Smashed, pierced,
the words are ringing,
fresh, intense,
the pain is stinging.
Rejected, unwanted,
no place to go,
nobody cares about me,
I KNOW SO!
Abandoned and lost,
PLEASE let me die!!!
I can’t continue living,
just to ball, wail, cry
Please have pity Hashem,
where are you? don’t disappear,
I need You SOOO badly now,
in the depths of my despair.
I’m begging You please,
have some mercy on me,
I can’t stand this insanity,
PLEASE here my plea!!!!
Nothing more can happen,
what more can go wrong?
I just want some freedom,
full of joy and song
Can that happen?
can that be true?
will it come?
otherwise I’ll sue!
HELP! HELP!
I cry in disbelief,
I wail, I ball,
what a rabbi, what a chief.
He’s supposedly so great,
so awesome, so amazing,
what happened to his middos?
suddenly no praising?!
i’ve learned not to trust,
not believe in a soul,
its not worth it in the end,
I’ve had to pay a toll.
I trusted in a “rav”,
someone to listen to,
but in the end its false,
he’s horrible, deceiving you!