Not at all hurt! And i replied because i knew you understood.
I know that so much (all?) lies in my messages to myself, in my decisions to do and change. But even what you said about how doubting myself stops change, and it’s more, that negative messages create my reality, I know it’s true. I can have an internal conflict, hear a negative message and telling myself it’s my yetzer hora and that blocking it will give me the ability… all the self boosts, and knowing where its from, and telling myself to knock off putting myself down, etc, etc… I’ve had ups and downs. and for myself, i know that in the downs, its empty words, i guess. And until i start a slight incline, that those words won’t help, but may even add to the despair, seeing myself not changing, feeling more responsible for my mood. I’m having a hard time articulating it, but that’s what i wanted to add. Hope something came out :). And thanks for all the feedback and support.