Observanteen- I can’t believe it, i didn’t really say thank you for your time and care and sharing! So, here’s a huge THANKS TRULY!!
Princess- First of all, just wanna say again, you’re really special. Your long individual replies and the obvious concern…. thanks!
You gave me a list of pointers. you hit all the important things straight on :). and that list is gonna be written down on a paper by my bed to review and review and make sure i can answer.
I have some amazing friends who help me through my tough times and good ones, and an AMAZINGLY dedicated mentor, who i can’t thank enough. (btw, you sometimes sound just like her-that’s a good thing :-). My better times i treasure and try to get as much growth into. Generally when i post, i am coping. When i’m really down, i don’t know what to say, unless a poem forms…like the betrayal one. Am i doing ALL i can? i doubt it, cuz i doubt myself. but there are many things that hold me back, and i’m trying to work on them when i feel strong enough to. i used to write poetry to vent, then stopped when i was really down. Now, here, i am beginning again. Davening? Prayer is hard… but one day at a time…
Wow, i never thought i’d be able to actually share myself here… i guess i do have another outlet :). Good to be able to talk out my thoughts. Thanks so much for your words and advice and care.