kapusta, I’m sorry. You don’t have to, but if you’d like to share what’s bothering you, I’d love to help in any way I can. Hope things get better, I’m thinking of you.
Syag, your strength and positive perspective is truly staggering. May your sister’s soul be raised to the highest level of heaven, and keep making her proud. I can’t truly feel what you must be feeling at this moment, but please know that I am sharing your loss and pain with you, and that you are never alone. And Zeeskite’s post is beautifully written.
Luna, beautiful poem. You are doing the best thing, when in doubt about something, or in which direction your heart should lead you, asking G-d for guidance is always helpful, and can also strengthen your relationship with Him. Wishing upon you much clarity and guidance.