Ultimateskier -thanx that really helped. But I actually do have s/t agenst the ” yeshivish” ppl. Some cld be really nice I gess ,but b4 I started doing ny thing they were always so quick 2 judge. If s/o told them loshen hara on a girl they Jst believed it w/o act. Looking in 2 it. Then I was such a good girl never did ny thing rong and they called down my parents. 4 wat?!?! 4 lies that s/o told them about me ” talking about movies ,tznius problems” and watev. Else and they were so quick 2 judge w/o looking in 2 it. At the end s/o from the hanhala sort if believed me and they x kik me out.
Boys is a problem. Cuz Jst last nite he texted me agen. Then I also have a friend Hos ” x counted” Jst cuz were x together. But my biggest problem is emuna cuz if I fully believed I cld be a better ppl. Thanx;)