This thread has served a purpose of giving chizuk to the op for six months of a devastating situation in her life. The posters have been able to help her through extremely painful situations by allowing her the opportunity to vent at any time, and giving their thoughts and ideas based on their true understanding of the subject matter and their various experiences in the parsha as well as their varied professional backgrounds.
For those who have tired of this thread or see no purpose in it, you have the option to not peak in and not engage in it. But to suggest that it be closed because it no longer serves your need, or serves your purpose is selfish. If the thread is still helpful and is serving the need of the OP and others who have come here for the same chizuk then it is worthy of the space it consumes. Please understand that she cannot get that same chizuk from those anonymous posters anywhere else. It is only here at the YW CR that this particular OP can find these particular shelichim to assist her and give her the chizuk she needs.
In case you haven’t noticed the OP did say that she has been in contact with therapists. However, please note that therapists don’t answer on the spot and are not available 24/7 or whenever someone here happens to notice that a question or request is posted. Help from a therapist is limited to the 45-50 minutes spent for that appointment and for the amount that is either covered by insurance or what the client/patient can afford to pay. In addition, there are many people who have gone through the same situation that have better insight than a therapist and no one should rely on one source alone when they are in so much pain and need so much chizuk. It is extremely difficult to just hold on to a week’s worth of pain and issues until your next appointment.
Having said that, please understand that neither I, nor any other poster here is against the OP seeing a therapist or receiving chizuk from any number of other sources, which she is doing. However, for as long as the YW, CR is willing to keep this thread going I am willing to give as much chizuk and support to this OP as I can and will do my best to help her through this nisayon. If anyone feels they can’t do it, then I am sure there is no hard feelings towards them, and they are welcome to either back out or take a break.
I have chosen on many occasion to NOT ENGAGE in other threads. It is a choice that I made for my own reasons that I won’t go in to. Everyone can make that choice for themselves. If you don’t feel comfortable here, or feel that you can’t help we understand that, but to suggest that this thread be closed is wrong on so many levels that I just won’t go into it.