WOW, I haven’t been following your saga for some time. I wish I had the right words to say.
The last paragraph, however, caught me. I cannot fathom the bitter pain you feel, the anguish at which you wrote those words. So let me try to talk my heart.
Firstly. Every discomfort, pain, grief, however minute, is going toward a specific purpose. Nothing is going to waste, nothing is being overlooked in Shamayim, no tears go lost. NOT A ONE. Everything is being measured by HaShem’s direct attention. And though it may seem to you now that the bully is doing great… Remember “..they grind exceeding small”. Sometimes in life we’re not able to wittiness a “hot” nekamah.. sometimes HaShem, for His reasons, sees fit to dish it out cold. But THERE IS JUSTICE in this world.
Secondly. I once heard from Rav Mattisyahu Solomon shlit”a, that one who causes another to stray, that person won’t be allowed into Gan Eden, whereas the one who was led astray, may actually earn it…
May we hear from you Besoros Tovos. Bekarov!