Rebshidduch – why do you think you came into the coffeeroom and told us all those things about the guy and how you didn’t want to date him? You obviously were very concerned about the possibility of dating him and were looking for chizuk to not do so. Now you ended up doing exactly what you were afraid you would do, and you expect us not to try to dissuade you?
I don’t think we will be able to dissuade you, even though you make it clear that was what you wanted. But at the very least, speak to your mother about it. She has your best interests at heart and can remain more clear-headed about the situation than you can. There is a reason why parents are traditionally involved in the shidduch process.