“Actually, the very night the incident took place, I discussed it with [one of] the most distinguished Posek in the UK. He told me unequivocally that if it were to happen again the next morning, I should be moicheh again. However, we were discussing this specific case, and he had been involved in the “backstory” that I shouldn’t have known, and knew firsthand the involvement of this ‘askan’. Therefore, his psak may have been specifically about this case where knew the truth.”
I’m glad to hear that. You had mentioned speaking to a Rav but since you still had ספקות, I thought that perhaps the “Rav” wasn’t necessarily amongst “the most distinguished Poskim in the UK” and therefore not someone whom you felt completely comfortable trusting with a sheilah of this nature.
However, I still have a few questions:
1. If you did ask one of the most distinguished Poskim in the UK, why are you still unsure?
2. If you did ask one of the most distinguished Poskim in the UK, why did your father still think you did the wrong thing?
3. Even if he was amongst the most distinguished Poskim in the UK, is it possible that he was נוגע בדבר (since you mentioned that he was involved in the “backstory”)? Would this affect his ability to rule objectively? Is he on such a level that it would be מבזה תלמידי חכמיס for me to suggest that? Is it kidai to ask someone else who was not involved just in case?
4. In any case, since you still have ספקות, is it kidai to ask someone else in any case?
5. “I fully understand your argument, and I don’t disagree with you. I just see another tzad as well.”
What is your tzad then? Are you saying that you think that just like in a case of pikuach nefesh, it is possible that one would be allowed to act on his being mekabel information that he wasn’t suppposed to have been mekabel, he would be allowed to for Kavod HaTorah?
6. If so, why don’t you find out if that is the halacha? Why don’t you ask that Poseik if that was the basis for his psak?
7. I still don’t think that it’s possible that according to halacha, you would be allowed to act on your being mekabel something that you were not allowed to be mekabel. However, something else occurred to me. In the case of Pikuach Nefesh, perhaps what you are doing is not acting on the fact that you were previously oiver on kabalas L”H. Perhaps, the point is as I already pointed out that being mekabel l”H is something you are continually choosing to do or not do. So even if you hadn’t been mekabel the l”h in the first place, you can still choose to now be mekabel it. Likewise in this case.
8. Why don’t you ask the Poseik what his psak was based on?