I hear your question, and I have an answer, but I’m not sure I can give it in a public forum. Sorry!
Suffice it to say, I would never have written that unless I thought it HAD to be said. Let’s just say that it was a combination of this: “In all honesty though, it was a lot of stuff that I bottled in and wanted to share it with someone who would understand and maybe hopefully make sense of it because this person is close to said rabbonim and I really respect them.” and what I already know about LB.
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