In life there are crossroads where we are unsure where to go.
Up until now you went to School and then went to seminary. Now that seminary is over, you are at a “What now”
You delimna has little to do with Hashghfa or anything like that, but rather where do I go next. Once you figure that out, things will work out. You do not have to decide at this time what you want to do for the rest of your life, you are still young.
Your life is no longer planned for you, you have to begin trying to investigate that for yourself