Hey!
Glad to hear that!!! Yea sem was an incredible experience for me as well. It opened my eyes to so many things.
So how am I. I guess without giving away too much info- in married BH:) he’s a wonderful guy! I finished university and will be working in an amazing field.
To say that life after sem was easy! No it was actually quite eye opening. I had envisioned life to go very differently. I became more right wing in ask however I was quite rejected from that community when I came home. It took me a few years to come to that realization because I kept telling myself that these are the frummest ppl out there they r just being tznious that’s why no one talks to me or I’m disculuded. But I realized the issues were much deeper. Unfortunately u don’t live in a huge community so now I find myself distanced from that community. I am in a happy medium I guess you could say yu right wing. I’m still equally as frum but I care way less about fitting in on the outside (my hubby doesn’t wear s black hat, I stopped wearing stockings etc.) While still in the bounds of tznious. I guess I had such a sad negative experience of a lack of achdus and seeing how they viewed who I once was (modern) really turned me off. I questioned how I wanted to raise my kids, because the truth is I don’t want then to be too modern but I don’t want them to be so focused on wearing s black hat that they do all these non frum things behind closed doors. I didn’t think it was fair to raise my family in a community that made me question Judaism and loving other Jews. Because maybe my parents are NO but they taught me that loving other Jews isn’t really a choice, it should be automatically engrained. And the hatred and superiority u encounterd was too much to handle that I almost went completely off.
To end off this I just wanna tell you that in the coming years, I hope you solidify and truly find yourself. And don’t be afraid to talk to others about your feelings. Find a mentor that was huge for me.