I for one, have decided to probably be coming back to Jewish civilization, at long last. I am abandoning everything here where I am and leaving town very early sunday morning. I am very destitute, I have NO place to go in NYC area. b BUT I do not care anymore. I would rather be homeless among MY PEOPLE than with goyim….I may be sleeping in Shomrei Shabbos soon….See everybody in NY soon….. My entire life will be in one suitcase. I have no other choice. I just cannot stand It here at all anymore, and there is nothing for me HERE except homelessness among goyim. I am paying a huge price. I have NO PLACE to go and even less of a place to be able to take anything I own…. I have tried everything I can think of to avoid this. I am getting a car ride to NYC area. I will need parnosa and a place to stay, and everything else also. I am giving up everything to return…. I will no longer be OUT OF TOWN YID anymore… I am lEAVING for NY VERY EARLY sunday morning and will not have internet access. I also do not have a working phone as my government minutes have run out for the month. I am quite destitute,,,,all for SHABBOS….I will NOT work ON Shabbos anytime, and I strongly uphold these principles. I remain a frum YID. It is never easy and our society has only made it harder for us….OUR OWN PEOPLE do not support themselves at all. I have found this out the very hard way. WHERE is our help? if it is there at all It is much too buried for me to find it…. AND…our help is coming with strings attached…..often it is ONLY a referral to goyim… In my case I have been sent to Local area Chabad which is ill equipped to handle anything, and to UNITED WAY and associated groups, which are all goyim here. What would I do with goyishe groups such as Salv army? their buildings are churches, but they call them community centers. Everything at these goyishe places is church related…everywhere…there is NO such thing as secular by them, they always throw in a bit about their goyishe environment….no matter how much it is THERE….A food pantry has a big sign on a wall about a Biblical verse from the NT… It SAYS it is nonsectarian….everybody is welcome, of course. In OUR facilities we do NOT dare to put OUR Biblical quotes on a wall. WE will be violating laws of church and state.
Many years ago I had cause to visit a well known Jewish Childrens organization. I was shocked at what I saw there. The children had ONLY toys related to fairy tales and TV and the like, I thought that NONE of these toys, or books was appropriate for a Jewish child…..Books were all completely so called secular….There was NOT one Jewish toy or book anywhere, NOTHING from artscroll…. When I asked about this I was told that THEY could NOT have such things there….governmental regulations…..well they are very much in place despite governmental regulations in goyishe places.
Things have of course never changed from the past at all, probably gotten a bit worse. And, the out of area JEW has it hurting him the MOST when he needs it the MOST support of all. Where I am for another day, I personally know a few Yidden who are now completely blended in with local society here, and have completely lost all ties with Yiddishkheit. ONCE FRUM, they have all but abandoned Yiddishkheit. All goyishe authorities are quite unable to understand US at all. WE MUST take much better care of our OWN FRUM people. Groups like Chabad and others, try to get Jews to return, aka KIRUV… How about trying much better to RETAIN our OWN FRUM people BEFORE a crisis ….I am risking everything to return….. much too many other people will just GIVE IN…..
I have seen MANY goyim being helped at JEWISH organizations, but are WE very comfortable at goyishe organizations? I certainly feel very ill at ease there.
Well, I hope that I never have to encounter any goyishe influences ever again. See you all back in FRUM JEWISH CIVILIZATION, where I belong.