” I did not have the right hashgacha..
First, kol hakovod to you and much hatzlacha in your efforts. 1a2b3c is right on point with respect to the support from Rebeeim such as R’ Nota Schiller and R’Mendel Weinbach at Ohr Samayach and other baalei tshuvah yeshivos and mosdos offering extensive support networks.
P.S. I think you mean “hashkafah” so don’t be surprised if someone inadvertently refers you to the Badatz Eidah Chareidit