“I was told that I was going to be sent out my school if I didn’t stop doing what I was doing… and all I could think is “ok I’m doing things against school rules and it’s not right, but why can’t my school teach me in the first place how to control myself or how to deal with these kind of feelings?”
My sense is the purpose of the schools rules is to teach students how to live in a way that would help you to control your actions. It’s not a formal class but it’s giving you the tools to follow to help control yourself.
As for feelings, it’s not easy.
“Who is strong? One who overpowers his inclinations.”
Best to you. Remember being a teen doesn’t last forever even if it may feel that way.