R’ Krunch, I think you have to endorse yourself for being where you are now. Many 26 y.o’s are not bearing the responsibilities you are doing, so honorably.
Have you checked out the Shmuz (R. Shafier)? You may find that he’s really talking to you. If not him, there are others who may give you chizuk. Most important of all, do you have someone where you live with whom you have a solid relationship, who can give you hadracha and chizuk?