Teenager-your log in name shows us all that you have a whole life ahead of you. You shared in your last post some horrific things you have been through, and you NEED a woman in your life who you can look up to, trust with all the pain you’ve been through, and can guide you in a way that can help you understand the true essence of inwardness (aka tznius). Have you ever contacted Nefesh, Ohel, The Yittie Leibel Helpline, or maybe even a high school teacher of yours that you admired for her sensitivity?
This isn’t something that you should go at alone, and what you went through is not something you should EVER have to experience again.
I know of some wonderful teenagers who have been where you are and are now very successful, beautiful, ruchniusdik young women, who are on a path upwards, and continue strengthening a kesher with their mentors, and who are very fulfilled.
Please, please, consider doing this, and believe that Hashem does have someone out there who can guide you, care for you, and be there when you need them.