ok, i’m being 100% honest now (as always) when i say that i need chizuk. i want to daven so badly, i just can’t. or maybe i won’t? i’m not sure. it’s just that things have been really hard the last few weeks and i feel like a piece of chametz.
i know this probably doesn’t even belong on this forum and i should find some teen-site but i’m not. i don’t know what do do anymore and it’s not the kind of thing i could talk about to anyone.
and then they say i’m the bad guy. i’m the one who’s suffering because of it all – not them. i doubt they’ve improved since i stopped hanging out with them every night.