areivim, wow! I am inspired from your posts, thank you!
moish, I’m happy to hear that you’re not hurt. That’s the last thing I would want to do to you. As far as guilty, well, it’s only good if it pushes you to do good things.
About the last part of your post, I think areivim’s right. You need to give yourself a break (maybe 20 hours is not enough.) Relax and chill out. No, you don’t need to worry about the next 103.5 years of your life right now. Now, you need to focus on doing what you believe to be your best in whatever challenges come your way. Our job is not to be perfect, we can only try. Just take it one step at a time. Chill out. Arity?
~a~