moish, if that was meant for me, I have NO clue what you’re talking about. I never said G-d is watching football (or baseball) while you’re suffering.
One more thing, I do think you’ve been through a lot (not knowing where you’re coming from or where you are now) but you’re 16 which is the middle of the teenage years and probably the hardest, after 16 at least theres an end in sight. Remember one thing, if things are so bad now, it cant get too much worse.
btw, I’m happy you gave in and are continuing to post here!