mazal, I don’t see where I have contridicted myself at all.
Yes, HaShem did give ME mitzvos but it is ME who choses to take them on.
You are correct in that I would not have thought of the particular mitzvos without HaShem’s Gift of our Torah. One of the many additional Gifts HaShem has given with His Torah is B’chira. I choose to accept and hopefully become a better Jew in MY avodas HaShem. To answer your question, yes without a doubt I want Moshiach to come but that doesn’t mean this is why I do my best to lead a Torah life. Its about ME remember? I don’t know where you got the twisted idea that I dress or do anything else because I “care what others think” I thought I made myself crystal clear in that its all about ME and MY avodas HaShem.
I hope you don’t think that HaShem “needs” us to cover our hair for Him – He gave us the Gift of Torah for us to become better people in order to be close to Him and serve Him.
I guess, my friend, you are “preaching to the choir” we just sing a different melody -maybe if we harmonize THAT will help to bring Moshiach. (Assuming kol isha is not an issue!)