RSRH:
Based on your handle, I am assuming that you have had an upbringing that most people cannot fully understand. How many of those who read the writings of your leader truly understand his meanings? (I think that in today’s age, fewer and fewer of the original group even try to study it, and most just continue to uphold the status quo. OTOH, I have a newfound respect for a growing number of yiddin from “other” group of “followers”, many of whom are really coming to grips with the true understanding of the philosophies and it shows in their clean break from the mainstream ways of their institution.)
You are following the path of the right and true, according to all you have been taught. Don’t let the moral judgement of those with differing philosophies to sway you. They are similarly pursuing the right and true according to what they have been taught.
The kollel lifestyle is a separate issue from the philosophies.