Wolf,
You say you follow the mitzvos, of which Hashem promised us good if we do them, so you cannot be consistent to say you are condemned.
Furthermore, every reason you give for being condemned is fundamentally absurd, at best a gross distortion of rabbinical pronouncements or a caricature of things people have said here, for example, laining Torah (lashon hara?!), giving nicknames to your family (do you purposely hurt your family’s feelings with the nicknames, or are you by extension condemning every parent of an Avi, Ruthie, Shoshi, Rivkie, Malkie, etc.?), and a large number of other topics brought up here. You alternate this behavior with opening topics that demonstrate a high level of concern for proper middos and behavior, not the type asked by someone who is really condemned. You act fully within the Jewish sphere but seem to want the rest of us to place you outside of it for flimsy, silly reasons. Out of burning curiosity… why???