op you do not have to feel like a goy.I remember learning in school that when a goy offers you pork,you do not have to show disgust or say that you hate it, but you could say, “it looks good / it’s probably delicious, but our Torah does not allow us to eat it.” So as long as you’re following halacha – it’s normal to find some things hard or unpleasant. It makes it all the more choshuv when you do keep those mitzvos…
btw, smartcookie I once observed a friend of mine “binding” her shpitzl and there were at least 5 layers there – no exaggeration. so it’s not the most comfortable thing either. I’ve also heard from shpitzl wearers that in the beginning they feel half deaf due to the thickness of it. So apparently it’s even more mesiras nefesh than it appears.