Eclips: It is really difficult. I’ve learnt to be selective with whom you share what. It may not be healthy to keep all things bottled up but opening to the wrong person is worse.
Try a little Tehilim. Try saying the yomi with an artscroll interlinear, without a kabalah. When we see and feel what Dovid went through, sometimes we relate to it very well, especially how he was slandered and vilified. Try it, unrushed without a kabalah- say bl”n. Its the best therapy out there