Happiest: I’m truly sorry to hear that. Although I’ve never gone out on a date (yet), I’ve had other difficulties to understand your pain. Life is full of “no’s”. Oh, it’s so hard to deal with them. But that’s what were here for, no? Try writing. It really helps (at least it helps me).
I want you to know that you’re a person I deeply respect and admire. You’ve gone through so much, yet your screen name’s “happiest”! You’re a positive and honest person. I really have a lot to learn from you.
IY”H, you will find your zivug soon. And I want you to know that I still daven for you. Hatzlacha Rabba.