Busy As a Bee-
believe me, I feel your pain because I am going through it right now as well… it’s a tough time…
Just a few random points
The key is to remain “busy as a bee” whenever I am busy, things seem better, and I also feel more fulfilled. Its when I am less busy that I have time to think and feel bad for myself (NOT a good feeling at all!)
Secondly, I think it is dangerous to feel desperate to get married. that could lead to c”v jumping into a relationship that is not right for you. I have recently heard so many unfortunate stories where people were married for a few weeks before getting divorced. Though I do not know the inside story, I tend to think that they may have rushed into the marriage without a clear mind, because they were desperate to get married.
Lastly, misery loves company- seriously! I find that whenever I am feeling down, if you speak to some single friends to commiserate, it really helps me feel that I am not alone in this crazy parsha of shidduchim, and people are going through the same crazy process- and look, we are all here to tell the tale!
Good luck with everything, and may you find someone who is worthy of you soon! And until then, you should stay positive and feel like a productive member of society, even though there is no shaitel on your head!