I don’t try to be a heretic… I just am.
And yet, many frum Jews would consider me a heretic and a lousy human being anyway.
Yourself included?
So, who am I to argue with them?
Why do you choose to believe them that you’re an apikores; you’d be better off believing in their hashkafos so that you wouldn’t be one (since you anyhow think they’re correct for considering you an apikores).