First step: you feel terrible
Second stage: you know it’s wrong, but don’t feel bad.
Third stage: You not only don’t feel bad, it feels right.
Next stage: It controls you.
The bad news is you’re heading in the wrong direction.
The good news is, you still know it’s wrong and still have the power to change. (of course change is always within our power, but at last stage, it is very very hard)