“I don’t think I should write my own prayer on this forum, because I think people would be too appalled and frightened at what I’ve gone through.”
For some this may be true. For others, you may be the chizuk & inspiration that they need. There is always someone else in a similar situation (different, but similar).
If you decide not to write because of your own personal reasons, that’s understandable.
But please don’t write because of what others may think.
You’re in a unique position to help others in a similar position.
As middlepath wrote above, “Sof Davar, I can relate to your prayer. It is somewhat comforting to know there are others who went through similar types of hell.”