I really feel so sorry for you. It must really hurt. I have a lot to write to you about it, I just don’t have the time right now. Just one thought though. We should have in mind that it’s the exact picture regarding our relationship with HaShem. He too nurtures us, indeed – created us from nothing. He sustains us constantly – even while doing a misdeed. How could we show ingratitude towards HIM??
I hope to be able to write to you later. (in the meantime please Zees up)