“wake up. Fast.”
<eyeroll>
Yes. I know that. And speaking as someone who has seen many things that he should not have, I know that you can’t bleach away every memory. And I know that those things can be very troubling. And are very wrong.
But I also know that to a 20 year old, it seems like the only option is to take a serial killer as a spouse, (or in some cases, do something worse) because they don’t “deserve” a ben torah because of “what they did”.
Like I said, guilt and regret is a good thing, in small doses. No one benefits from getting into a state of depression. That’s one of the Soton’s favorite tools, because it looks and feels like mussar at work.
Like I said, Adorable. Look forward, not back. Your future is ahead of you. And from what you’ve written so far, it look very bright and promising!