Adorable,
i read this thread and it brought back terrible memories. I too went through this ‘stage’ in my life after my sem year. At work i’d go onto sites that i never in my life would think i would ever go on. I read and saw such things that i knew i shouldnt. It killed me so often but i got addicted adn i couldnt stop. It came to a point where i just wanted to change but couldnt!
Finally, one day, over a year later, i said THATS IT! I must stop! And you know what, i really tried! i was able to stop for a couple of hours adn then i’d slip. a few minutes later i’d stop and i was ‘good’ the rest of teh day. This happened so often but eventually i stopped and i felt so much better…But i still wished i hadnt been exposed to all that ‘shmutz’!
I am now married, b”h and i feel that while it was a terrible thing that i did, its over and i can work on myself every day to be better than the day before.
Just try a little bit every day and you’ll get there…