Always Here and Am Yisrael Chai, I am so sorry for your respective losses. I think it is safe to say that we all experience loss at one time or another,and can relate to the pain.
Correction: I can feel the pain in your words. Some nisyonos are worse than others, but to the person experiencing them they are all catastrophic in the moment. If it is a health issue, we can try to seek the proper medical guidance. When it is emotional or social, it may be more challenging. Whatever it is, I wish you much hatzlacha and peace of mind. Nothing is forever, whether good or bad. Hopefully, the good is coming your way in short order.