Reply To: I don't deserve her

So, the girl at this point doesn’t think it’s going to work out between us, but she’s taking the weekend to make her final “decision”. Yes, I’m sad…I really thought we were connecting. But really, that isn’t my biggest concern right now..My biggest concern is that I was too nice about it. I couldn’t bring myself to show her how it hurt, because I didn’t want to make her feel bad. I’m too nice, I care too much about others, I can’t demand things, I can’t say things to people that might make them feel bad. And that’s not good. I also hoped that she would be the one for me, and that my life would finally turn around and become worthwhile. I always thought, and I’m actually pretty sure, that I’ve suffered enough for a lifetime, and now is when I can start the good portion of my life, married with a wonderful wife. But maybe that isn’t what G-d had in mind for me. I’m sure He knows what He’s doing, but I sure don’t.