you wanna know how u can change (which has nothing to do with marrying a boy sitting and learning) first you are going to a diffrent country gonna be with diffrent girls then u were for the last 12-15 years in school with if you had a certain reputation nows the time to change you can become who u want nobody knows your family parents…
you will be going away for shabbos try to broaden the types of familys you go to and you will be surprised how diffrent people raise there kids, talk to there spouses, hold a shabbos tish, and just keep house. Untill now u saw only one way. Its good to broaden ur outlook within the frum world a little bf u start ur own home i”yh
You will learning not cuz “its gonna be on the test” but cuz u want to and u will learn and take with u more than u did in all 4 yrs of high school …i could go on and on