Everyone says I’m “strong”-what in the world does that mean?
I don’t know about anyone else. I say it because I see the parts of your life you have described for us, and see you still alive and living and generally going on. I call that strong.
It doesn’t mean you can’t ever feel like you want to give up, or actually just decide to give up for a while. That is a perfectly normal response to the situation you are in. I call you strong because after that, you have shouldered on so many times.
It doesn’t mean now you are strong so you have to be able to handle everything. Whatever you can’t handle is fine- that is normal.
Seriously, if you can’t go to school, I don’t blame you. Is there another option? All options should be on the table here. Who can you discuss these options with?