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Allow me to recommend a fantastic book. The book is called Real Power by Dr. David Lieberman PH.D Its a fantastic book that will really help you grow and get past many of your problems. I have read it and I can say it did a lot for me.
You can probably find it in Eichlers or other Judaica stores. Take a look at the book before you buy it I think you will like it very much.