The grass is definitely not greener on the other side. The grass of a life with Yiddeshkeit is the richest, purest, most radient grass that you could ever imagine. I am a baalas teshuva. I have seen both sides. A life without Hashem and yiddeshkeit, isn’t a life at all. It is all instant gratification and quick fiixes of “happiness.” (Whatever their perception of happiness is.) It doesn’t last, and it isnt fulfilling. So many times I wished that I was born into a religious family so I wouldn’t have to see what a secular life was like. I have accepted that it isn’t what Hashem planned for me, and I have such a good relationship with Hashem now because of it and my experiences, like Middlepath said. I know I would be a very different person if my life went a different way.
I feel as though the people who dont really feel what a life of Torah and emes is all about, who are looking to the other side, just havent tasted the sweetness of yiddeshkeit yet. IY”H one day my goal is to open up a school that concentrates on the love of Hashem, the love and excitement of Judaism, simcha, and a place where there is acceptence and seeing each student as a neshama with a life of growth ahead. I have been through the school system and I feel as though this is missing. There are too many rules, and cookie cutter statuses. Like, if you dont fit here or there you arent accepted. It isn’t easy.
princesseagle, no one is judging you here and we are here to help :-).Teenage years are hard. It is all about figuring out who you are, where you fit, what you want to do with your life. Some adults still are figuring it out. It is part of life. But it is always good to talk to someone. Im here for you!