Observanteen! QUIT THAT!!
Seriously, Yes, IMHO! most people must have the times they are going to feel frustrated at themselves and feel like a failure. G-d made us people and therefore we are going to make mistakes and yes, sometimes fail to. But! That does not make us into failures!! We win some and we lose some, but the main thing is that we keep going FORWARD!
It’s not a prob. to rant as long as you deal with the feeling in the right way.
And btw, i don’t know if the reason is a legitimate one this time, but i do think that it is a positive thing to be frustrated and disappointed at oneself in areas that you can change. But that doesn’t sound the situation here!
i’m sorry you’re feeling like this and PLS feel better quick!!!!! Hang in there – keep going, you’re doing great!