Happiest, unfortunately you are NOT alone, there are many feeling exactly what you are feeling, but B”H, you are capable of voicing your feelings. There are so many in your parsha who have not found their voice yet, let alone a support system. So even though that person has taken a walk for now, WE are here for you, and you have already accomplished so much just by finding your voice, speaking up and looking for support in the first place. Please do not let this set you back. There are survivors around who are willing to step up to the plate and offer support. There are support groups, and people who are willing to listen. Not everyone is cut out to carry such a huge burden on their shoulders. Believe me as painful as it was for you to experience it is also painful for someone that cares about you to imagine and accept that someone can do that to you, this great and wonderful and innocent being who couldn’t defend herself. Sometimes, that burden and knowledge just gets too difficult to bare.
So please reach out to those who can handle the pain and support you through your struggle.