hey middlepath,
that musta been really tough. its funny your saying this because even though i come from an awesome fam b”h and i couldnt really begin to understand the situation you must be in, til recently, i was having these crazy jealousy feelings for another reason. to the point that i got really down and depressed about certain issues that im having. but then i started thinking about what i can accomplish in my situation that no others can accomplish in theirs. and i realized that although my situation may be really tough for me to handle, obviously i can REALLY DO things with this situation. and i know this doesnt really help with your problem about having a shul and all, but i”h when you find ur match, ul feel loved by ur future wife and her family, because she will be taking you for WHO YOU ARE, not for who your dad is!!! keep strong!!!