Happiest: I know it takes time to find just the right meds for oneself, but it is worth it. People don’t realize that doctors who deal with this are just using a lot of trial and error. But think of it this way: Once you get the right medication or combination of meds it will help you a lot more.
BTW, though you said that you don’t feel strong, I must say that I admire you for starting this and the other thread (support group one), and I really think it was courageous of you. Really! Some would feel uncomfortable doing so, even in an anonymous forum like this. So I believe that you are stronger than you think. And you are probably helping others who are reading this, but don’t have the courage to post. Chazak V’amatz!