Mischief: Ooops. I’m really, truly sorry. I didn’t get the picture right. I thought you just read books, and that you were just a negative thinker (I still work on my negative thinking – nothing wrong with that).
As for your sad thinking abt dying C”V, I want you to know that I was honestly ready to jump the roof at one point. B”H, whether you believe it or not, I LOVE to live now (yeah, I’m one of these ppl you think are having it easy and just living a life…). I want you to know that YOU ARE NOT A LOST CASE!!!There’s no such thing! If you’re willing to help yourself, you will get helped Bezras Hashem. DON’T GIVE UP!!! Life is worth living. You barely lived a third of your life! You still have a lifetime ahead of you!! Those terrible times PASS. You will get better IY”H. I’ll have you in mind when I daven BL”N. Hatzlacha, and sorry again.