Pinkocean you are most certainly not alone, lots of girls feel the same.
I have daughters and nieces who would come back from dates disillusioned beyond words, not upset by individual boys but rather a sense of being let down by the whole thing. You try your best, daven, work hard and look good and then there is a sense of anti climax as you have an actual date. Don’t give up, some boys are unconfident and inept at socialising but time effort and looking hard will bring you someone you will like and respect. I know! Some boys need a gentle hint as how to open up and talk to girls, hence superficial chatter or awkward silences.
Keep your dignity and hopes up, your tone will change when you meet the “one”!