Hi always runs with scissors fast.
I am right here! lol
You are very astute and very correct.
I have never realized it before but you immediately touched upon some things which are very evident.
I dont know why these things happen, but perhaps their politeness to us is short fused and expires after a few minutes, and it is like they are programmed for that. lol
In fact, their avoidance of a rapport with us once it gets into the “why” phase is clearly seen, and even dangerous in certain circles like the local traffic courts. In fact, it does not work at all with law enforcement and some of the finest people in the community have been abused by officers merely seeking a humble explanation or wanting to share more information.
I have witnessed things in traffic court (a friend of mine had to go) and on the streets where very decent frum yidden just want an explanation or a chance to make a contribution to the conversation and explain what invariably turns out to be a very intelligent and meaningful point. And they are met with hostility and even threats to cease making their point. And this is done by our own municipal public servants.
I have found that the non-Jewish world, except for a few types like radicals/rebels or lawyers, for some reason, do not go to the “why” of something.
As a people, sometimes we are too smart for our own good within the golus we live in.
Always, I have even found that people with our experiences sometimes inadvertently threaten our own people who cannot accept that we have a certain worldly awareness and insights they dont have. I want to be clear that this does not mean one is better. Each of our lives are different, the same, and preciously valuable. The non-Jewish world has it’s own “thing” too, and my experience in that world is an important part to the hashkofa of what I am doing in coming closer to Hashem now.
Still, we should never dummy down. We cant! lol
Keep on “whying”.
Also, few people realize that it is very amazing what you are doing. To come close to Hashem with more things to do then we can realize, not because you are told to do so, or your whole family (family of origin) is doing it or preparing and helping to make it easy, or, in fact, may be discouraging you from doing it and not interested in sharing the Jewish things that make you happy, is a very special experience that few know or are able to share with others. You and your family are truly blessed, and that blesses the rest of us! Thank you. : )