please excuse my lack of grammar etc., I’m typing on a tablet
firstly, you are not to blame. do not blame yourself. you are a victim, your kids are victims. you are at a very important crossroad. I’m sure it is quite scary. the decision you make will have an impact on everyone. I can see from your posts that you know what the right move is. I also know that “right” doesn’t make it any easier. we are here for you in the CR. I wish you the best of luck and all the strength and courage in the world. I can arrange for you to speak with a mental health professional, pro bono, if you wish. If you do, I’m sure one of the kind mods will help me pass the info to you
be strong
be couragous
most importantly
BE SAFE!!!