SilentOne, wow. I am so sorry for the suffering you have been going through because of your ex-wife. I have tears in my eyes. You are an unbelievable person with superhuman strength to be able to keep living, and to be able to use your situation to better understand what agunos go through. You are such a special person.
May G-d help you with everything you are going through, may He listen to your prayers, and may He give you the strength to move ahead in life with only happiness and success.