AYC, you have been the victim of terrible injustice, and we all feel for you. However, I noticed that you posted many links to threads that prove the injustice, but you did not mention the apology thread:
http://www.theyeshivaworld.com/coffeeroom/topic/od-ayc-chai
The mods apologised to you publicly, it deserves to be mentioned.
I understand that you’re not ready to forgive yet, but ultimately forgiveness is the best healer. Don’t do it for *them*, do it for yourself.
Take your time, and when you’re ready, the whole coffee room will receive you with open arms.